A Lazy Perfectionist.: I don't deserve this amount of hatred.
I’m fully convinced by now that the universe does hate me. It astonishes me how every time I get closer towards dealing with my phobias and insecurities, something, and most frequently someone needs to ruin it all for me and make me doubt myself. Again.
I’m graduating high school in a month….
I don’t know you but reading this gave me a heartache. NO ONE deserves this kind of treatment! Do not beat up yourself over it but also do not do anything to hurt the people that actually care about you (your family). Those fuckers may deserve what’s coming to them but your actions, sadly, reflect on those close to you and the ones you least want to hurt. You shouldn’t feel bad or cry because of their hatred! They should be the ones crying over their cruelty! If you have a clear conscious and soul wake up every morning feeling proud of yourself for fighting on! The bullying will someday stop and the people who treat you this way will leave your life, just don’t drive away people you love. Go in the graduation room and own it! Say just how much you’ve worked to get there and reveal your dreams. You are beautiful! x Please, do not give them the satisfaction they long for. What goes around comes around, trust me I’ve been bullied before, i know the feeling but now i DO NOT GIVE A FUCK! They can talk all they want about me i have my few close friends and i am happier than i’d ever be! ”Hold on there little fighter things will get brighter ;)” If you want to talk to anyone please DO NOT hesitate to talk to me if you want message me anytime!!
Friendship is hard, it takes years to be built and tests to be put through. Not everyone is going to be friend and not every friend you have is going to last until the end. Choose them wisely, forgive but not forget and be ready to let go when the last drop falls.